The First Unexpected Surprising Thing About Divorce.

Washing my hands makes me sad, because I used to move my ring and dry the water from underneath it. Now when I wash my hands, I reach for the ring with my thumb to move it over a little bit, and it's not there and my finger feels weird, and then I remember why, and then I re-experience that shock of grief as if for the first time, and I forget to breathe again, and my head starts spinning again. Amazing how the state of marriage seeps into the tiniest, most deeply sub-conscious crevices of one's life.